So, I am going to be quite frank with all of you. a mission is
hard. imagine that? the words of so many missionaries before me. but let me tell
you why it is hard.
It is hard because Satan knows how powerful we can be as missionaries. He
knows we can change lives forever. He knows that with God we can literally
affect generations and for that he is afraid. Honestly this week was tough and i
realized for a time i had lost hope that really there were people out there that
really were prepared to listen to the missionaries to our glorious message.i
felt very alone, and still had faith in God but not necessarily that there were
people out here for me to find or to teach. and i felt like i kept feeling this
way and just could not find the balance.I kept trying to push through it and
would sincerely be fine one day with out any problems but i kept having these
days of breakdowns where i just felt overwhelmed and couldnt handle it. there
really was one day where i did not want to go out to teach, i didnt. but
know that in that moment of difficulty i said a prayer with my companion (who
was really being fantastic and comforting me) and i told God exactly how i was
feeling. that i felt i had lost hope, that i was discouraged, but that i wanted
badly to believe there were people out here for me. that there was a reason i
felt so stuck and that there had to be something to learn from it, but that i
was tired and needed his help, His consuelo (comfort), and i needed His
strength. I bore my heart out to my Father in Heaven, telling Him everything and
did it out loud.
Afterwards, i felt so much better. i felt true peace in my heart and felt
like i really could go out to work. to find the lost sheep, find a person that
really needed us. sabe que (know that or i like to think of it as guess what).
that same day not 20 minutes later we found a woman that we had taught a little
bit a month ago and learned that she didnt feel like she had faith. and so we
told her to read Alma 32 (i dare you to read it. it is amazing, so many
inspiring scriptures)...but we could not get a hold of her for about a month,
always busy (and we were beginning to think uninterested) but we passed by for
her. and sabe que, not only did she invite us in, but she opened up to us (after
very inspired questions that God gave us) admitted that she had actually read
the chapter in alma (seriously that is a miracle) admitted that she didnt
necessarily believe it (another miracle because normally they just tell you it
was nice or they dont remember what it said) and basically confessed she was
feeling lost of hope and like she couldnt find balance and was just tired.
EXACTLY HOW I HAD DESCRIBED HOW I FELT TO HERMANA MEEKS THAT VERY MORNING HOURS
OR MINUTES BEFORE. and God had given me a chance to study scriptures that week
to help me and to really understand how this woman was feeling. because honestly
before this week i had never felt that way. and through my own trial of faith i
was able to understand how she felt and be able to guide her to the answers and
help she needed. to show her that she really wasnt alone that God knew who she
was, but also that God knew who I was. that He answered both of the prayers of
our hearts.
God has power. we really do not. and to be honest we need the help of God
in our life. we need it! but we have to "Ask and ye shall receive,
Seek and ye shall find, Knock and it shall be opened unto you."
really we just need to ASK. in prayer. it is incredibly powerful.
i love praying aloud with my companion. i just feel the power of prayer.
seriously. i challenge you to try it. to pray vocally and open your heart to
him. sincerely tell him what you are going through and feeling and plead for his
help...i love the results. you will feel a difference. I promise as a
representative of Jesus Christ that He hears your prayers and will answer them.
really He will.
I love you all and I hope you take the time to really enjoy the Christ in
Christmas and let Him in and allow Him to help you.
Hermana Konrie Ming
Sabe que, we have special transfers this week, because some missionaries
are ending their missions so people are going to get moved around so that their
companions arent solo...all the hermanas in our house are so close (like a
family) i am really worried that one of us will leave soon...
hermana meeks is so amazing she is my best friend and i love her. she
always tries to help me feel at home.
hermana dardon is so awesome;) she loves pink, and is very blunt, and talks
like a racecar in that it is dang fast! it honestly took me a while to
understand but she is really wonderful. she loves to pull our legs with little
white lies. (last week she told us pday was cancelled....as we were going to
sleep and would have no way to verify or replan...stinker
hermana chachi is so funny, gullible and always laughing. very loveable and
she is always trying to learn new things in english...
they all loved the advent calendar that we received last week its really
fun and we share everything so we all gret to try new things. latinos dont like
beef jerky but love cashews just a heads up!
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